My coworker handed me the Fashion and Style section of the NY Times today because it had an article about Sean Avery and his fashion sense off the ice versus his fist sense on it.
He also pointed out that I might enjoy an article titled,
"Modern Love - My Clock was Already Ticking."It's about a woman, who at 34, was pregnant and her boyfriend didn't want a baby. She had a plan and since that plan included a husband, a home, and a baby--in that order--she terminated the pregnancy. Still, she found herself without a boyfriend
and baby and up one parting gift clock. She eventually married another man and they made a home together. She was unable to conceive naturally again, but two adoptions brought two babies into their home.
I surprised myself with my reaction. The article made me sad. Yes, she eventually got it all. Although the article painted a positive picture and stressed the whole
things have a way of working out theme, I ached for her inability to conceive. I felt that loss. We make choices that can have lasting repercussions. Why is it possible to only learn if the choices we make are wrong until it's too late? Even "wrong" choices can end up in happy endings, does it make it any less a regret? It is easy to say that had she kept the baby she may not have the husband, the house, the other two babies. It's just as easy to assume it all could have worked out anyway.
It's still hard for me to pinpoint what made me so sad about the whole thing. I don't relate to any of the details (for the record). I'm in no rush to get married. I often joke it's not going to happen, but I hope that's not the case. Maybe it was the fact that at 34 she didn't have it all yet. It's a scary thought that at 34 I could find myself at a similar juncture: struggling career, unmarried, unable to have children if I wanted.
It's difficult to imagine what will make us happy so far down the road. We can only make decisions based on the here and now.
I think I know what made me sad:
"So despite what my heart advised, I did what I didn’t want to do."
Comments (3)
i think it is a sad article. sad she couldn't conceive naturally again. did the article say if she ever got over her own life plan? sometimes life throws curve balls and when we try to determine what those curves should be, we get rocked. this could make a most interesting conversation. too much for xanga. let's meet soon! love ya! except for putting up my fat hs pics. i mildly love u. but on an overall everyday basis, i love you madly!
@heavnzbrat - Haha. Yes, love me madly!
She got it all, a husband, a house, and two babies. She accomplished her life plan in the order she had wanted, but not without consequence and not without roadblocks. It's just a reminder that we can make choices based on what we hope will happen, but even then we might be tricking ourselves about what should happen. That article still makes me sad.
hmmm....that IS sad. =( Guess we're reaching an age now where we have to really think about what we want out of life. Time just flies by, huh? Wishing you the best babe...hope we all find love and happiness, even if it's not the way we imagined it to be. =)